Tuesday, July 22, 2025
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the world may've known you as my grandmother but to me you'll always be Mama.
My feelings are surreal, a derailed train of emotions. Shock, anger, guilt. All the "what ifs" and "should've been"
"could've been" however that does not matter anymore.
I have learned you never put things off, don't wait for a sign, go out an do something. be something. never hold in the demons that hold you down. .talk to somebody, find someone to open up too. ask for the help you need. never wait until it is too late.
All i have left of you is the memories. all i have left is the small voice in my temple, her voice whispering to me affirmations, guiding me through the twisted trails, pacifying my racing mind at bedtime. lead me down your garden path. I see you. in the dragonflies, the cardinals, the butterflies and moths. the light breeze kissing my face in the garden we built. your DNA will forever loom in the garden, on the holly, our juniper pine tree, the hibiscus you planted for me as a newborn.
you'll never disappear.
Never be truly gone
forever in our hearts
~Nefertiti aka Zariah~
